Me

This Thursday Theme is going to be a little different.

I had to get some pain out and this is the only way I can do it.

A viewer messaged me on Pinterest and asked me to write a blog post for myself.

At first, I was puzzled by this.

My whole blog was created to help others but it has been a long time since I wrote something for myself.

This viewer helped remind me why I had started this blog and what it means to me that I am helping people.

So this one's for me.

I often get asked why I blog.

‘Why bother if you have no audience???’

I don’t care.

I don’t care if the whole world sees what I write, or if no one sees anything I write.

I don’t care if my spelling and punctuation is wrong or if there are people out there saying that I suck and should go away.

Oh well.

I blog for me.

My blog.

My life.

Yeah, there’s going to be people who say it’s stupid and that what I'm doing is dumb. Even the people I consider by closest friends said that, and now I hid myself when I'm writing, I switch the page if they look.

But I don’t care anymore.

Most of my posts are for my subscribers.

Not today.

This post is for me.

I don't care if my family hates me and my friends don't understand.

I don't care if my 'best friend' can't even tell if I'm upset.

I don't care if the people around me think I'm some perfect little princess with no worries.

I don't care if I have to hide the pain I feel everyday, even to the people closest to me.

I don't care if the pain I hide everyday comes from the people closest to me.

I don't care if the boy I like doesn't like me back.

I don't care if the person I can't stop thinking about wouldn't give me a second glance.

I don't care if I hate myself.

I don't care.

I’ll probably look back on it in a week or two and think of how dumb I sound.

But I'm still going to write it, still going to publish it.

I'm still going to hope that someone will understand.

This post is to me, by me.

Always xxo